I'm sorry I just fell off the face of the earth, it's been almost 3 months since I've even logged on to Blogstream.

I'm suffering, I'm sad, I'm not myself.

Hook is still very sick. He can't work. Work Comp continues to fight which means he has not had an income since October. They denied paying for his surgery so the medical bills mount....financial devastation.

We've had to put all future plans, including our wedding on hold. Our house is in my name...they can't take it to pay his bills if we are not married.

He sees another Dr. on May 7th, a pain specialist in DesMoines. (A 2-3 hour drive.) His side is so sensitive and painful, to leave the house I have to wrap his chest in saran wrap.

We are hoping this will be the end of this nightmare.

The fight has left me. I'm pretty much in a daze, just going through the motions of daily living. I know it will get better, until then I'm just going breathe..in....out...in....out.

I miss you all.

~Nursey~